2004-09-13 - 12:35 a.m.
maybe i am broken hearted... maybe i was stupid and i let myself get hurt. I think i should not trust for a while i think i need to back off for a while.. i think that i need to not be "loved" for a while... please dont break me... but i have been broken i have been broken by the one i really try and trust. please dont break me... please dont break me...broken broken broken.. I was hysterical they asked me why cry over him there isnt any need... i cried because i felt like i would never be whole again. It is 12:30 I wonder if you are sleeping... I am not as you can tell... on and off i have been crying things make you break never again never again. I wish i didnt love you i wish i didnt love you. Promise me you wont break me, these feelings wont shake me... i am the lonely one once again... you can go back to your life free of these worries of the brown eyed girl with the broken heart and the dirty pictures. Feel free to use those when you get lonely... because i cant tell you if you will ever have the real thing again. Last night was good... but i can say that i wish it didnt happen the way it did... i wish that you would not have lied to me.... to make me happy... even if they werent lies... still they were in the moment of passion and i wish i would have known that you didnt mean them.. So maybe i am in love with a blond blue eyed boy that doesnt love me... we had sex yesterday and now i am broken.. he broke me... and i dont know what to do.
Lindsey
I wish i could say sex is nothing but sex.. but last night wasnt. ///I am in love with a blond blue eyed boy that wants once a week "close friends" hang outs and non committed hearts. I am the brown eyed girl that wants a realtionship where love is the word of choice and when "make love to me" actually means something
