September 6,2003 - 12:05 a.m.
I dont feel like fighting anymore, we are ripping away at eachothers hearts, atleast i think so. I frustrate you i know... i walked away but i took a step backward to say hello and i guess it didnt work. But i am not the same brown eyed girl, i really think they are black now. I dont want to break this anymore than it has been i am sorry i have to say what was said. Right now you are in the drivers seat and i am scared, i am not waiting for you, but i just am waiting to see if you ever want to try again. Right now i am on my own i am stronger than i ever have been before and i know you arent the same person you were before. I can not say that i dont miss you, because that would be a lie. I lost my best friend about 10 days ago, and that is hard. I have adjusted and coped with it, i am doing good, and i know you are too. You told me you are interested in me, but you dont know what you want. I am confused too. Perhaps i need to take another step back in your direction and find out where the destination is.
Lindsey
