12-5-04 - 7:56 p.m.
Things make me angry like all this shit i dont know im confused about everything right now. Christa says im over examining things i think im just trying to wreck everything but you know i will just take it as it comes. I need to leave in a few minutes and read Crime and Punishment. I think i just dont like being alone anymore.. not like i just want anyone but i dont know.. this has been a crazy weekend... next will be crazier.. fo sho. I dont know im just.... confused and kinda angry because i dont want him around anymore... because im horrified of him i tried to tell him that and the things he says makes my blood run cold... not just cold.. ice fuckin cold Oh fucking hell i just get driven up the wall!!! You cant possibly understand this feeling.. I think i need to get away.... i think i just need to get the fuck out of here... yeah. hahahahahahahaha DAMN IT.
Somedays i just want to shed this skin im in and just go away... time to go read... maybe my wish will come true.. nah im just gunna write more
