October 3, 2004 - 12:19 p.m.
Well perhaps he knows that my heart skips a beat when he hold me close. She is suspicious, she doesnt trust what is going on. I know she knows because I dont go out people come here and when i tell her that i am going out she looks at me funny and tells me she doesnt want me out late. She saw me smiling today, i think that makes her scared... but i cant blame her... i am scared too. He said good night sweetheart last night and it almost brought me to tears. When he said things might get better soon i thought i might fall to my knees and cry long and hard. I think we are going no where fast, i think i should give up i think i want to be broken. Well I am going to meet the boy that doesnt want me like that...
Lindsey
