September 8,2004 - 11:41 p.m.
so my stomach is twisted and i am crying... you said goodnight lindsey and my heart stopped. I think i want to go to sleep and dream that someday i will be happy. Believe me day to day i am happy i have friends and i have a good life. But still there is something missing, i had a taste of love and now it just feels wrong. It is good to know youare happy and that maybe someday things will work out. I just think it hurts a little to talk about falling hard in love and it being hard to catch your breath when you see that person... i think that i just want that with you someday. I am not wishing, hoping... but i can dream that someday these things will work out and we will be happy together. I go to sleep at night and dream of love and sometimes of you... and when i wake up it seems like something is missing. Perhaps because i cant smell your skin on my pillow anymore.
