April 23,2002 - 5:47 p.m.
I know you find all this bs interesting. To be completely honest, I do too.
Listening to the same song as everyday, with my eyes closed. Waiting for something interesting to happen. Wanting the drama to stop. Why do I bother, I am just starting more by saying anything. No matter what I do I will do something silly and agravate someone beyond their expectations.
I am, Oh so predictable
Following the same routine as every other day. Thinking about the exact same things. Wishing for everything, I know wont happen. Writing in my notebook. Laughing alot at nothing at all, I could be alone for all I care. I dont know what I want but I do want something.
I am so negative for one reason only. If I think negatively, nothing anyone could ever say would hurt. I am prepared, in a weird way.
Im telepathetic....yes.
Melissa calls them the "revlons". I dont know what to call them. I like the "revlons", not as people, I like that name. It suits them all. Showing up today in their mini skirts and too-tight shirts. Running around looking for attention. They leave nothing the the imagination, nothing. I am sorry, but they make me sick. They almost hit us today. We were walking across the street and they just..almost hit us. Assholes, bitches, fucking sluts, whatever!
It was AJ's birthday today. She looked so pretty today, I like her shirt. Something was wrong, her and Amy said hi to me before school. Whats wrong? Oh well. But she looked pretty today, everyone was talking about it. I saw the same look in every girls eyes, they want so badly to be her. I dont blame them... *sigh*
The same song is still playing. I have played it about 8 times already. I dunno...
I hate writing in this damn thing. Oh well!
Lindsey
