2004-11-18 - 4:11 p.m.
Shit i wrote a whole entry and then deleted it by accident it was hella long and you know what FUCK IT
Well yeah today i was trying to figure out who i should go to winter ball with because i dunno i just wanna go with someone at school because it would be so much easier. I am so tired right now of everything. I got caught in my little lie and well im grounded this weekend and i am tired of everything. I told her the truth i could have lied again but that just would have caused more shit i dunno. well i met a guy his name is matt and he is sweet and funny. Some might say he is too sweet for his own good but i dunno. I may have started falling for him but i dont know i think i am keeping myself from falling. I am scared. I dunno perhaps it is smart to have my guard up but maybe it is stupid because im might be letting something special pass by. Well you know what im still too scared to just jump in head first and let things go because i cant let it outta control. im a little tired still i think im just stressed... nah i am stressed. I am not able to handle all this right now i think i need to just take a deep breath and just calm myself. Jeeze this is driving me nuts. Oh well you know how it goes when you are 17 and out of control and you get into trouble and you dont really care anymore.. The only problem is i really do care. Shit..im fucked.
