September 16,2004 - 12:01 a.m.
maybe i am irresistibly irresistible... perhaps that explains when you took my chapstick off my lips using your mouth.... i dont think friends do that. I dont think friends go up to your room and get down on your floor strip to the bone and do what we did. You say you dont care for me like that anymore, but that you cant resist me. I think if you really loved me you wouldnt have lead me on like that. But i still want to be your friend because you are my angel. You know i am head over heels for you i would die for you (literally). i would do anything to feel like you love me even throw myself at you everytime i see you.. because after all.. i am irresistibly irresistible... I came home and was hysterical i thought i would die i couldnt breathe i was drowning in my own pain. My dad looked down at me as i lie crying on the floor and he said i have no self esteem.. that is why i keep going for someone i know doesnt really want me.. and i cried louder... because i knew it was true.. I am so desperately in love with my blond blue eyed angel.. and no matter how many times we become "close close friends" he will never come back to me. Yeah, i have a confidence issue.... but that isnt the bottom line.... the bottom line is i am in love... with someone that doesnt love me
