August 26,2004 - 7:00 p.m.
I told my dad i wish i could get a piercing, i told victoria i want ink.. she said "i do too, 18th birthday and we will get it", and i said... "i cant wait that long i want out of my skin". I ate too much today, i ate more than i have in a while.. I dont know why. I kinda wish i could jump straight out of my skin and shed this weird ass feeling that i have been having. I need to lose weight i want to be 110 lbs again... i have been working out everyday and all i have managed is to get to 130lbs... perhaps i just need to a little less.. oh well. I do want out i want out i want out let me out. Let me just jump out of my own throat and i swear to god i will be back in the morning.. I cant stand how i look right now with my hair pulled back, i have an ugly face. Someday maybe i will finally get out of this skin of mine..
lindsey
