2005-02-24 - 1:02 a.m.
Yeah so i totally fucked up that is the bottom line. I fell for a boy head over heels my heart belonged to him and still does. You are the sweetest person ever and i dont know what i would do without you. I think we had our problems because of communication, i didnt talk to you you didnt talk to me we would hug like 3 times a day at school but yeah... it wasnt working. I miss you so much i dont know what i did without you.. I noticed how much you meant to me in your absence. Sure with writing this i might lose any future chance with the other person i have been going on dates with . but i guess that might be a chance i might have to take because i dont know.. i know i love you. Love is a hard word to use and somehow when i am with you it comes freely and that scares me. I want to be in love i want to have a bf i want to be happy and to make someone happy . I guess i was scared to talk to you about why we werent talking because i was afraid you were talking to someone else that perhaps i wasnt pretty enough, skinny enough, smart enough. but if i am not any longer a person you would want to be with i understand and i could step to the side and be your friend because as long as i am in your life i am content.
Lindsey
