2004-03-18 - 6:05 p.m.
I am in love, with a beautiful boy. Who ever would have thought one night I would fall for a blond blue-eyed angel at the age of 15. He is the most perfect person I have ever met, he makes me weak in the knees. Maybe it is his perfect smile his perfect lips his perfect nose his perfect heart oh oh his perfect oh so perfect body. I am in love. More than a year ago I gave my heart away to a boy a beautiful gorgeous boy. And today that boy still keeps it safe and sound. I love how he can look at me in the mornings when I have just woken up and I have no make-up and wearing sweatpants and a baggy shirt and tell me how gorgeous I am. And even though I have gained some weight and he still tells me I am gorgeous. Numbers numbers I have the same body as before….i am the same person as before… I am still as in love with you as I was before… Still can wear the same clothes as before. Just the way that he can tell me I am his everything when sometimes I feel I am not. How he can nurse me when I am sick and how he can help me when I am down. He is my everything. He will always be my everything. I love every minute I spend with this boy and every second I spend asleep in his arms and the way he breathes on the back of my neck when we are in his bed in the dark and how he kisses me goodnight. I used to be afraid of this boy when he came in to kiss me after a long night of trying to be social, now it is nothing and I remember how we would lie on the floor at night and he would come in slow and I would turn away and laugh. I love how he let me ease into it. And how he lets me have control when I know it is his turn. And how he lets me be aggressive and how he puts up with me and my stupid habits. I am overly sexual, and I like how he deals with me. And I love how he says goodnight and even better how he says good morning. Most of all I love to hear his heartbeat when we are alone and I know I will never have to leave.
