March 21,2003 - 9:48 p.m.
This week end was good. But perhaps i am a bit too insecure... massive understatement. I hate being this way. So paranoid that someday you will notice you are WAY too good for me and find some pretty older thing that is everything i am not. I know this is about the time that you tell me to shut up because you think i am beautiful.. I just dont know why you think i am so pretty.. i really am not.. i really am not. You on the otherhand are the most gorgeous thing i have ever seen.... jeeze.. *sigh* I dont know I am really just ugh right now because i dont know. Just self conscious i guess. And then sadies is next week, perhaps i would go so that i can just mingle for a while and then decide what to do after that. Plus ray and i have to put operation ditch sadies into action... haha. Yeah, sadies always sucks...seriously.. i dont even kno0w why they still have it.. boring as hell if you ask me. Oh well i might just go to dance a while then just leave. Enough to keep appearances up yeah? Yah right, what appearances? HAHA I miss brian.... i have only been away for about a half an hour and i already cant stand it. grrrrr. damn school night. Then i cant believe that our spring breaks are at different times so, that sucks also. fuck that shhit. Oh well. I am really bored. i really need to paint my nails, what a waste of time... but then oh well... it is a sunday night... what better do i have to do? Seriously. Brian I miss you.. *cry*... i cant wait to see you tomorrow because i really really really love you and i cant take being without you.... Victorias Secret tomorrow!!! Fashion show!! YAY hehhehehehe, slut! I love you forever and ever <3. My baby... Well I think i might be done here because i am losing my mind... yay
Lindsey
