September 7,2004 - 9:18 p.m.
Well, lately has been ok. I have been going to school and doing my thing looking for a job and running around. Felt good to be missed, just did... Now i am not so bad anymore i have not thought bad thoughts this whole time i am okay with this you know i am that i am growing and i am changing... jeeze i am strong. I havent thought about hurting myself this whole time.. i have no drive and the thought is gone.. seems so distant... I got senior parking today, yeah i guess it is ok. I am going to do a training on friday with tonja and the i have to go to the DMV for the meeting about the seizure incident.. yeah it did take 8 months to get the appointment. Well, for the rest of the week i guess it is just school work. Last night i learned how to salsa and merengue from roberto, i guess we have to go to some salsa festival next weekend and since i am the only girl that he knows even a little in this damn country.. jeeze. Yeah, dad is making me go and he made me dance with him and it was weird. I was glad to drop him off at college i dont like when he sleeps on the couch for too long... I dont really want to go anywhere.. oh well.. i kinda wanna be by myself or with my mom. I am a home-body.... i like being here... it is nice. Well right now i am bored and i dont know what else to say.
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It is good to know i am missed... i cant smell your skin on my pillow anymore... it went away. I miss your smell alot... you always smelled pretty.. it was always so safe.. Now things are safe in a different way. But dont get me wrong i miss you too. I dont want to get into this more, you might think i am weird
