June 26 - 12:21 p.m.
Four days until my birthday... all i want is brian to come back. *shutting up*
Yesterday I spent the entire day with nicole, she made me feel a bit better... because i was hyper as hell and pretty down. I couldnt stop talkinga bout brian. I am so confused i thought he dumped me but i guess nicole talked to brian and he said that we are on a break... yay! So we are still together, but just taking some time away from each other. I hope he doesnt date anyone else, well i highly doubt that based on the fact that a break means we are still bf&gf but we are just taking a BREAK. I hella miss him. I tried so hard not to talk about him yesterday, but that plan failed. So i kept talking about how much i missed him and i cried when Memory by Sugarcult came on the radio... then we got pedicures.... We went to the movies with evan and victoria... i felt bad because some guys made fun of me for having no ass... well i lost weight and my pants totally dont fit... it felt really bad to get made fun of. We went and watched White Chicks... and then i drove nicole home.
I know this is all going to work out, because i love him so much.. and he knows that... I know he loves me too...
I left a dozen roses and a card on his bed because i know he still doesnt wanna talk to me, but i just wanted him to know that i was thinking about him.. .and that i will be here waiting until he will have me again.
I am so head over heels for brian.
I got my hair done at nine this morning... it looks cute i think.. alot lighter. Broke up the black hair coloring that i had before, i think it looks alot better.
I am still not sure if brian is coming to my birthday dinner tonight... because i dont want him to come if he doesnt wanna see me. Because if there is something that he would rather be doing then he can do that. I just dont want him to come and act like he doesnt care at all about me.. because it is frustrating because i know somewhere in there he really does care.
We are a beautiful thing... i never wanna lose that.
