October 31,2004 - 7:25 p.m.
Yeah it is halloween.. this weekend has been entertaining. David wants to come down again soon to see me. I found my ex's tux in my closet. My parents cleaned my room. Everyone was drinking beer and i had diet coke. I wore cut up clothes fishnets and boots. I went to gyros. I saw Lauren. I met Aaron. I went down the street and talked to boys. I am 17 illegalness sucks. I turned in my SCU application. I got more hightlights. I ate candy. My parents fought. I wore spikes on my wrists and liquid eyeliner. I hid the photo albums. I ran down the street to get away. I wanted to drink. I took my meds. I didnt sleep. I looked at old pictures. I felt alone. I heard i was pretty. I started to believe i am pretty. Found out i weigh 125. Took a bottle of tequila from my house and didnt drink it. Gave a 22 year old guy a ride to the liquor store. I tried to fit in. I wanted to fit in. I gave up. I coached soccer. My girls won 4-0. Planning a party. Family Reunion in tahoe next week. I dont fit in anymore. I feel alone. I am upset. I want someone to save me. I used to have someone to save me. Was broken hearted.
