1-8-05 - 1:04 a.m.
Things just come to pass sometimes and you see how many issues you have and you see how people you want to trust with every fucking drop of blood in your body cant be trusted and how no matter how much thier words change they will never be what you need. Being in this play i saw before i dont know i have been there many fucking times and still i dont think im ever going back since when have such beautiful/perfect words been so ugly and meaningless So fucking stupid wanting something that doesnt exist anymore needing something that isnt there anymore it is fucking over and i know it I am pissed at myself and i am going through this that i did this that i let this happen that i let a blonde blue eyed boy do this shit i want to fuckin kick my own ass
