August 4,2004 - 11:50 pm
i really do miss brian right now. i hope that he is having fun, i am sure he is. because going houseboating kicks ass. i think most of all i miss the smell of his cologne, and how i can always smell it when we are lying in his bed and i have my head on his chest. I miss how he calls me blond all the time even though i am not, but sometimes i can act it. I just want him to be happy though and i knew before he left he really was not happy, not because of me.. but because of other stuff....i just know that he needs some time to himself.. away from everything.. and i think these few days at Shasta will do the trick. I dont want to say that i miss brian too much because i kinda feel stupid.. hehe because he has only been away for five days... but still i usually see him a little bit everyday so this is kinda giving me brian withdrawal......
But i really have been having fun the last couple of days i got some painting done.. and i put some patches and added some unique touches to my back pack. Now i have started making some beaded felt christmas ornaments... i dont really have that much time to finish them because i wanna get them done before we leave for Europe on saturday.. soooo that means a lot of work tomorrow because on friday i have to pack and make sure i have everything that i wanna take. I need to find my button down long sleeved shirts to take.. but the only thing is i think that my boobs may have gotten too big for those shirts.. because i havent worn them since i "visited the magical boob tree" (compliments of irene.. haha).
Well it is about midnight so i think i am out of here before i fall asleep
Lindsey
